Adventures in God

Who, me?

2011-12-01T18:31:00.000-08:00

Have you ever felt that there must be something more? Wondered why you are so bored with your life? I must confide that I often have these feelings and would do anything to find that "something more" in life.

Recently I was thinking about the things that I know God has called me to and something occurred to me. I realized that I am the problem; that I am creating my own boring life. All this time I've been blaming my boredom on my circumstances and it turns out that they're not to blame! Can you believe it? I absolutely hate it when I realize that I am the only one to blame and can't pin it on anybody else.

But the question is, why? Why have I been creating a boring life for myself. I certainly don't want to be bored. Why do I keep making decisions that aren't pleasing to me? Who am I trying to please? Then, all of a sudden it becomes so clear, I'm trying to please other people.

As a Christian, there is one "person" I should try to please, and that is God. While this is true, somehow I find it difficult to only please Him. I often find myself giving into the temptation to please people around me. I figure out who "they" want me to be and I act accordingly never truly being who God has made me to be. It really is so funny. God wants me to be myself, to be who he made me to be; it is so simple and easy. People want me to fit into the mold they have made for me which I have to poke and prod to get in to. So you would think that I would find it easier to please God, but I don't. Why? Because instead of having the fear of God on the inside of my heart I have the fear of man.

To have the fear of God means to place more importance on Him than on ourselves. To have the fear of man is to make our peers more important than God; they are made to be an idol in our life. So why do we do this? There are many different reasons but for me it is mostly fear that I won't fit in, that somebody will notice I'm different from them. There is a culture dictation that everybody must fit in, that the "nail that sticks up get hammered down". It is because of this culture that I find myself always trying to fit in with my surroundings instead of being bold as God has made me to be. God has called us to be conquerors, not to be afraid to stand tall as the men and women of God that we are. If we would only embrace God and be ourselves our lives would change forever.

God created each one of us with a purpose. We all have different callings in life and until we are on the path of fulfilling those callings, we will continue to be bored. To start this process, we must stop putting our peers before God. Stop caring so much about what other people think of us. We must begin to place importance on what God says about us and who He wants us to be. We must stop trying to fit into the crowd and begin to stand up as the people that God has made us to be!

So, the question is who will we choose to follow? Will we follow God or our peers? It is up to us to choose where to place our focus. Who will you choose this day?

My Worst Ene"ME"

2010-11-06T15:26:00.000-07:00

I have discovered something over my walk with God that has recently re-surfaced in my life. I am a bit of a competitive person. If there is a competition I want to win! I will do everything possible to beat my opponents. While there is nothing wrong with being competitive, I have recently realized that I am a little too competitive. The reason I say this is because I caught myself trying to compete with myself! I realized that I am no longer competing against others but rather against myself. There is a difference between pushing yourself to do better than before but it is a completely different level to compete with yourself. When I realized that I was competing with myself, I knew that I have a problem.

If I am to ever accomplish anything in this life I know that I must push myself to do my very best. If I settle for mediocre effort then I will get mediocre or even bad results from things that I do. I know that I must be the best that I can be, everything that God made me to be! While this may be good enough for God, it has not been good enough for me because I need perfection.

I realized I had a problem when I wasn't just pushing myself to do my best, but rather pushing myself to beat my previous accomplishments. I had decided that doing my best wasn't good enough if I didn't do better than before. I must confess that this is a problem I have had my entire life because I am a perfectionist. If the product I put together is good but not perfect, I find that I regret and beat myself up for the errors I made. This is why I compete with myself, if I think in my mind that I put out a perfect product one time then I must put out an even more perfect product the next time. Can you say, "IMPOSSIBLE!!!". When something is perfect you can't out-do it, you can only achieve a product as good. Perhaps the product is not the same exact result because of different aspects, but it can not be better than perfect.

The issue of needing to always produce perfection was brought to the forefront of my mind because I was thinking of a recent blog entry I wrote. The blog entry I wrote got very encouraging feedback from people that read it. Now, most people when they are encouraged feel good and want to repeat whatever it is that got them the praise in the first place. Not me, instead I began to worry that I could never write as well as I did in the prior blog entry. I began to worry that I couldn't out-perform myself and began to get nervous at the thought of writing another blog. I thought to myself what if people didn't like my writing as much as they did before? What would I do if I didn't get all the compliments? I decided that I would be a failure. I knew in my mind that I needed to write even better than before because I had to win the competition and make an even more perfect product. Immediately after I had these thoughts I realized how crazy I must be. What kind of insecurity is living on the inside of me to make me panic in such a way? It was at this moment that I realized I am my own worst enemy.

If you think about it, life can be rather funny. Growing up I was always trying to please my parents, grandparents, teachers, etc. I was always trying to do things good enough for them so they would praise me. Then, when I became an adult I gave my life to Jesus and He began to show me that it didn't matter what other people think because as long as I do my best, that is all that matters. I admit that almost eleven years later I am still struggling with my fear of man, my fear of what people think of me and the things I do. God has helped me to gain much success in this area despite my moments of weakness when I can't stand the thought of people not liking me. However, there is one person that no matter what, I am always worried about what they think. This person, is me. I am the most critical of myself, I don't need anybody else to beat me up because I do a really good job of it myself. It's amazing because while God is willing to accept me as I am, for some reason I am not good enough for myself. I need the perfection, I need to constantly out-perform myself. This unfortunately is very tiring because it is a never-ending cycle of constant competition. Truly, how can one compete with oneself? I have tried for many years and have gotten nowhere.

So, I began to pray. When I realized that I was almost paralyzed with fear to write a new blog because of my previous entry, I knew God had to help me. I was doing enough damage to myself, only God could bring me back to the place where He can use me once again. My prayer everyday is that God be able to use me however He needs. The problem is that when I won't settle for anything less than perfection from myself and beat myself up when I'm not perfect, I make it impossible for God to use me. How can God use somebody in other people's lives to help them when they won't accept the way He made them? Nobody is perfect and not one person on this earth is exempt from making mistakes. This is a hard lesson to learn for me, but I know that unless I begin to accept my imperfections that I am doomed to live a life of insecurity. God didn't make us perfect on purpose. The only time we can act in a perfect manner is when He is using us, which is how He planned it all along. He wants for people to know when He is moving and the sign to know He is moving is when things are going perfectly.

When I prayed, God showed me a picture of the story about the woman with the issue of blood (Mark 5:25-34). He asked me if I wanted to be healed of the emotional scars like she was healed of her issue with blood. When I was visualizing the story I saw how easy it was when she touched the hem of Jesus' garment. All she had to do was reach out to Him in faith and she was healed. God was telling me that all I had to do was ask and believe that He would heal me of my insecurities and it would be done! God is so amazing!! We as people need to have steps, 3 steps, 5 steps, 2,221,009 steps that we must follow before we feel that someone can achieve victory over an issue. I thank God that He is not like us in this manner; that He only requires us to ask and believe in His love for us, and it will be done.

Naturally, it didn't take me long to repent of my ways and ask God to heal me. And now, I am free in my mind to continue in my writing. God has freed me from my own criticisms of myself so that I am no longer concerned with being perfect but rather simply doing my best. That being said, I hope that you like this entry, but if you don't then that's okay because as much as I wrote it for you, I didn't. See, I know that God wants me to write and so when I do, I am writing for Him. I did the best I could in this entry and that is the most I can do and it is all He wants from me. I am writing because I know that it pleases Him, and that is all that matters to me. So, I have now defeated my worst enemy and am walking in victory through Christ!!

I am so excited about this victory, that I felt I must share it with you. I hope that if you struggle like I do with perfection insecurities that it encourages you to look outside of yourself and your own expectations and realize what really matters. I hope that you too will look into the eyes of God and see that He loves you just the way you are.

Safe Space

2010-10-17T11:32:00.000-07:00

Have you ever gone somewhere and had someone tell you not to feel intimidated because "this is a safe space". This has been something that has helped me in the past to feel more at ease in a group setting, but it doesn't always work because of my insecurity. This is unfortunate because only when I'm in a safe space do I feel able to share a piece of myself with others.

Recently I was at someone's house with a small group of people. We all meet because we have a common interest of writing and want to encourage each other. As part of the meeting we share something that we have written. I am currently writing a book, something that I have never tried before, so naturally I was a bit nervous because I didn't know how good it was. I was so worried about what the people in the group would think about it that I began to get very nervous and the palms of my hands began to sweat. What would they say? Sure, they may be encouraging to my face about my writing but what would they really be thinking on the inside? I became so fearful of what they thought that when it was my turn to read I started by apologizing because it was still in the rough draft stage and wasn't finished. I didn't feel safe. I went on and on about how sorry I was for the writing I was presenting. Finally, I read it and everybody seemed to like it but I still had my doubts and felt like such a failure. Despite what may have been said at the group I just knew that nobody liked it and they didn't like me.

The next day after the meeting I couldn't stop thinking about what a failure I was and how much everybody in that group must not like me because I am so pathetic. The entire day I continued to think in this manner and then I began to think about how this person and that person in my life, not at all related to the group, don't like me either. I began to sink deeper and deeper into depression because I felt so alone and there was nobody that could help me. My husband absolutely hates it when I get into one of these funks but doesn't know how to help me get back to "normal". The truth is that there is nothing my husband can do to help, it is between me and God, and only God can help pull me back up out of the depression.

Later that night God began to speak to me about my situation. He showed me that the enemy had been filling my mind with lies for several days in order to make me feel inferior so I would go into depression. The passage from the book I am writing is about part of my walk with God and the enemy didn't want me to share it. The reason he tried to prevent my sharing it was because he wants Christians to be separated and to not share their personal experiences. As we share our experiences with one another we can learn from each other and grow closer to God and the enemy will do everything possible to stop this! So, when I read my writing it was presented by a person feeling inferior to everybody instead of someone who has overcome many things thanks to God. Thereby making it ineffective.

After God showed me what had happened he immediately convicted me. God showed me that when I apologized for my writing that I wasn't apologizing for myself but rather for Him. See, I began writing this book because I felt that He wanted me to do it, and I have been led by the Holy Spirit for every aspect of the book. So, when I apologized to the group for my writing, I was apologizing for the thoughts and lessons that He has put in my heart through my experiences. I was apologizing for the message God is trying to speak through me. I repented for my actions as soon as I realized what I had done and God was faithful to tell me the title and general subject of the book I'll write after I finish this current book. The reason why this was important was that for several days before this prayer time with God I had been wondering if I could even write a second book. I couldn't imagine what the subject matter would be for any more books. But when God told me what the next book would be it was His way of encouraging me to continue on in my writing.

God has given each of us a message to share with other believers and non-believers. He has given us all incredible gifts in order to speak to His people so they can be comforted, loved, and brought closer to the heart of God. Naturally, the enemy doesn't want us to use our gifts because he wants everybody to become distant to God and the hope is to have all people completely turn away from Him. So the enemy attacks our minds to make us feel inferior so we won't share what God has put on our heart; this is what happened to me. True, I did actually share my writing but I did it in a manner that virtually ensured nobody would be take it seriously thereby preventing them from absorbing the meaning of what was being said.

It is our job to know who we are in Christ and not apologize for it! God made you and me in His image (Gen. 1:26), and He is perfect, so why don't we think we're perfect? Yes, we are not actually perfect because we are constantly sinning and making missteps, but when He is working through us we are perfect. When He is using us to speak to His people we must know that we are safe to do what He has instructed because He has already made the way. It is important to know that a safe space is not created by people but rather you can only feel safe when you are confident in who you are in Christ!

We, as the church, need to start believing that God loves us and made us the way we are on purpose in order to advance His kingdom. The only thing we need to do is stand up and be who God made us to be. When we succeed in being who God made us to be, then and only then will we feel like we are in a safe space.

Rise and Shine Sleepy Eyes

2010-09-19T19:37:00.000-07:00

I heard someone say the other day that people outside of the church think that God is dead. That people don't realize that He is very much alive and moving in the midst of us. While I know that God is not dead, it is evident that people all around me are not convinced.

I began to pray about why people think God is dead and believe it or not, He told me it's not His fault! Can you believe it? The truth is that the fault lies with the church. God wants to show up and move in the midst of His people but the church has been sleeping therefore preventing God from moving. As the church has been sleeping, it has appeared dead and has not shown the power and love of God. We have been going through the motions of living our lives as Christians as if in a daze. Sure, we read our bible and pray but what else are we doing? We are living our lives as if we are sleep walking, when will we wake up?

God is fully able to "show up" and let people know that He's still alive without our help. See, God doesn't actually need us to do anything, but He wants to use us because the purpose of being a Christian is to worship God and show His love to others. God will not move until the church wakes up from their slumber and begins to live in the fullness of God.

So, when will we wake up from our sleep? When will we decide that seeking after God and His purposes is more important than ourselves? It is time for something different, it is time that we put God first! It is very hard for us to do what God wants all the time and not fall asleep, but I believe that we as a church can pull it off! It is time to rise up, take our place, and walk in the power of God!

What do you think? Is it possible or is God only dreaming?

The Best Kept Secret

2009-07-14T09:34:00.000-07:00

I have something that I want to share with you. What I want to share is the best kept secret in the world. Are you ready for it? If you are come real close to your computer screen; make sure nobody else can see the screen because it's a secret, are you ready?

Here it is, God loves you and He has awesome things He wants to do in your life. God's got plans for you that you've never dreamed possible. He wants to bless you and give you immeasurable favor in every aspect of your life. Most importantly, God has a specific plan and calling on your life; all you have to do is accept it.

Okay, so you may already know the secret, but did you know that what I just said is true for every single person on this Earth? That's right! God doesn't only love people that go to church, he also loves those that don't, even those that have never stepped foot in a church. I know what you're saying, how can this be, but God, I chose you, I go to church every week, I helped in ___ ministries, and I......; how could you love somebody that's never done anything for Your kingdom as much as you love me?

Well, I have the answer, it is that we are saved by grace, not by works. Let me ask you something, do you love your children, spouse, mother, father, etc. because they do something for you or do you love them the same no matter what? If the answer is yes to loving them because they did something for you, then you need to come to the understanding that love is not conditional. If a person must do something for you to love them, then it is not love. Love is unconditional, and God loves us from before we were even born, and seeing as love is unconditional, why would His love change for anybody?

God loves everybody, and He has a plan and purpose for each person. But, He doesn't just have any plan, He has a plan designed specifically for each person. His plans for us are as unique as our fingerprints, no two are alike. Sure, there are similarities with different callings, but none of them are exactly alike. For example, according Acts 1:8 we are to go and share the good news (Jesus) with all people, that is the same; however the way (style) one person shares the good news is different from another. Why? It's simple, God made each of us different. And because of that, He speaks to us in different ways, at different times in our life.

For me personally, I always knew that God existed, but I ran as hard as I could away from Him until I became born again at the age of 19. Why did I run? I didn't want to have to obey Him; I wanted to do what I wanted, when I wanted, and how I wanted. It was bad enough that I had to obey my parents, I didn't need someone else to obey. So, I ran from God. At the time I was running, there were family members that I know were praying for me, praying that I would commit my life to God. I also know there were times that they thought it was hopeless and most likely considered me a lost cause; but God didn't. Then, my cousin and a friend began inviting me to church. At first I resisted, but then I began to go on a fairly regular basis; at least until I realized I was being sucked into the church world. That was the LAST thing that I wanted...so I ran. I ran away from God pretty hard for approximatly three months, then I was invited to a Saturday night youth church service, where for the first time, I felt God's presence in a way that made me cry. It was amazing because I had truly felt a glimpse of God's anointing for the first time in my life. I went back to the church the next night and the preacher spoke about how our body is the holy temple of God, and that we need to treat it as such. To make a long story, short (a little shorter) I went to the altar call, repented, and felt the powerful anointing of God in such a way that it literally shook my body. At the same time, I received the baptism in the Holy Spirit and the next week I was baptized. So many times we write people off as being a lost cause when it comes to God, but it is all in His timing. He didn't give up on me, and neither did my cousin and friend. Because of the persistence of my cousin and friend, and God working in my heart, I gave my heart to the Lord and have been living for Him ever since. This was almost 10 years ago. And throughout my walk, I discovered that while God wants us to obey Him, it's not the same as having to obey people. The reason, is that God always puts you first, He always thinks of your feelings and how something will effect you. And when I came to this realization, which is when I became born again, I wanted to obey Him because it was and is always in my best interest.

So, what am I saying? Why did I tell you all of that? I tell you the truth, God loves everybody, and desires that no man perish (John 3:16). So stop sending other people to Hell by declaring that they will never be a Christian. Start praying for them and raise your prayers to God. When we pray to God the Spirit and Jesus intercede for us (Rom. 8:26&34) and the people we pray for in ways that we cannot. Begin to declare the good things that God has for them; if you don't know what those good things are then read the Bible, it is full of promises.

If My People

2009-06-16T16:10:00.000-07:00

I am constantly hearing people talk about how revival is coming, get ready, because it's coming. Do I believe it is coming, absolutely, but why isn't it here yet? We so desperately need revival in our country, throughout North America, and all over the world. So if there is such a need, why hasn't God sent the revival to us?

The other day I thought about the Scripture in 2 Chronicles 7:14 where it says, "if my people, who are called by my name, will humble themselves and pray and seek my face and turn from their wicked ways, then will I hear from heaven and will forgive their sin and will heal their land." To give some understanding to the background of this reference, Solomon has finished building the temple for God to dwell in and God had just told Solomon in verse 13, "When I shut up the heavens so that there is no rain, or command locusts to devour the land or send a plague among my people, (14) if my people..." Clearly, we have not seen such horrible circumstances as stated in verse 13 but haven't we seen some "plagues" like people constantly trying to take away the rights of Christians by taking out prayer in school, not valuing all life regardless of how young or old, and denying that the United States was founded on Christian principles?

I know that some Christians have come to a place of repentence and humbling themselves, but maybe, just maybe, it's not enough to allow our leaders and pastors do all of the work? Maybe it's time that we become proactive instead of reactive. Maybe, just maybe we should pray for our country before more deterioration occurs, instead of waiting and being appauled at what is happening. If we Christians want to make a difference, as we all claim, then perhaps it's time to stop "wasting time". God put us on this earth to worship Him, bring in other worshippers, and train them so they may bring in additional worshippers, if we aren't accomplishing these tasks, then what are we doing? Are we doing what God wants us to do and being productive in the Kingdom of God, or are we wasting time.

It very clearly states in 2 Chronicles "if my people", this says to me that it is up to us. So stop crying out to God pleading for Him to help us come to a place of revival in this land if we aren't even humbling ourselves and getting revival in our heart. The first step to seeing revival in our land, is humbling ourselves, asking God to forgive our sins, and yes, asking Him to forgive the sins of the other people in this land. But first, we have to admit that we have sinned ourselves and stop blaming it on everybody else. We must stop pointing the finger and saying how bad society is if we're not willing to do something about it. Because, "sinners are doing there jobs, they're sinning, are we doing ours" (Pastor Joe Timberlake) Let's get real, and get God so we can share Him with others.

What are we doing with our lives?

2009-05-29T18:04:00.000-07:00

This afternoon I was taking a walk and listening to some Christian music. At one point, I decided that I really wanted to focus on God and so I decided to close my eyes so that I could block out everything around me so I wouldn't be distracted (it was a quiet street with no traffic or activity). As I was walking with my eyes closed, all of a sudden I felt myself begin to trip and immediately opened my eyes and caught myself before I fell to the ground. Then, I suddenly realized that what had just happened to me is a picture of how so many Christians live their lives.

As a Christian, there are many times that we want to only focus on God and block out the rest of the world. Naturally, there are times to do this. We need to focus purely on God. We need it in order to know God. We need to know what He is thinking and feeling. We need to tell Him how we are doing. God desires these times with us and we should desire and even desperately seek these times with Him.

We should always have intimacy with God, but not to the extent of blocking out the rest of the world. What I mean by that is that while we are not supposed to be "of the world" (John 15:19) we are still very much living in the world and we need to stop hiding behind our Christianity. So many times I have heard, oh I can't be around this person or that person because they ____ and as a Christian I need to stay away from them. When someone uses their Christianity as a guard against allowing someone "in the world" in their life they are doing the exact opposite of what Jesus wanted. After all, who did Jesus hang out with while he was on Earth? Did He restrict Himself to only being around men and women of God? NO, He was constantly around the sinners, the people that we immediately shut out of our life because they don't know Jesus. Let me ask a question, how will they get to know Jesus if they are never told, or even better, shown His love? If we don't show them who Jesus is and that they need to get right with God, who will?

It is time to stop hiding behind our church walls and go out and be little Christs (Christians). We need to start doing what Jesus did, which was be around all people. It is time to stop being afraid of the devil and start believing that our God is bigger and much more powerful than him. That we have nothing to fear because we have God on our side. So who's with me?

Who Is In Control?

2009-05-28T14:26:00.000-07:00

There is a song called "I Believe" which is by the Deluge band and within the song there is a line that says, "Never gonna change my mind about You". I have seen people (including myself) "change" their mind about God; anywhere from a complete turning away from God, or rejecting Him in the moment when we don't think following Him is very convenient, or even simply not doing what He wants because it's not what we want. All three of these instances are examples of when we put ourselves on the throne and decide what we want to do and don't particularly care what God thinks.

Anytime that we ignore God and His desires for us, for our destiny, for our day-to-day living style we are essentially saying that our opinion is more important that God's and that we have changed our mind about God being our Lord. Oh my, how self-righteous we can all be, because let's face it, we have all done it at some point, and if we don't think so, then we're in denial because nobody is perfect. But, oh, to one day be the person He desires me to be, someone who does everything He wants and always put myself and my own feeling to the side and ignore them when they don't agree with His will, oh, how I do long for that, how about you?

I know that when I read my Bible and worship Him through prayer and song that I become transformed because He is welcomed into my life and I am able to continually keep Him as Lord over my life. But yet, I know that it is not enough to do these things, I need to allow Him into my life completely, to choose to listen to and follow Him every moment of every day and truly never change my mind, even in a split second, about who God is to me. The only way I can ever become all that God desires for me to be is through reading the Bible, worshipping Him through prayer and song, and most importantly, having his Holy Spirit not only living in me, but through me. The Holy Spirit must penetrate my entire life so that when people look at me, they see Him and not the selfish person that I am without Him.

I love God with all of my heart and want God to be in control of my life, and I will never change my mind!

Thought for the Day - Be Yourself

2009-05-26T10:39:00.000-07:00

Have you ever noticed that some people you come in contact with seem phony; like they aren't who they seem to be? So many times we try to not be ourself by acting like someone else because we think that they're better than us. Perhaps we think they're more eloquent than us, or more spiritual, or more popular. We compare ourselves to people around us or on television and think, "if only I could be like them, they're so....", then we do everything we can to imitate them.

God has made each person unique and special and loves everything about us. We are supposed to be different from everyone else, not carbon copies because we all have a unique calling. He has a purpose for each of our lives, and if we become who He has made us to be, we will be able to fulfill our purpose. Our life is a journey, and we are always seeking to be the perfect creature that He desires us to be through prayer, worship, and reading the Bible.

The very first step to being able to fulfill our purpose is to accept and love who He has made us to be. How could our purposes be fulfilled if we are supposed to walk in love but yet we don't even love ourselves?

God made us the way we are on purpose, it wasn't a mistake. We are His beloved, and He is ours. God loves us no matter what!!

It's Not All About Me

2008-10-10T06:13:00.000-07:00

The other day I was speaking with a group of people and we were talking about relationships. We began to share what we look for in a friend and the way that we treat our friends. In the midst of our conversation, the fact that there is more to life than satisfying our own needs was brought up; that Jesus died on the cross so that we could have a relationship with God and we could help others have a relationship with God.

In our everyday life we often get caught up in the daily activities and lose sight of what is important. We are not Christians so that we can live in secret about being a believer but rather to share the love of God with others because it is not all about us. It's time that Christians begin to stand up tall and declare the faith that we have in God. It's time that we step out in faith and pray for people that are in need instead of being too shy to approach someone that we know needs prayer. It's time to worship God in our attitudes and actions, through reading the Bible and worshipping Him with our voice. It's time that we no longer be intimidated by what we think others might say if they knew about our faith but rather encouraged to know that God is with us and all that matters is His opinion of us. It is time to allow God to be in every part of our lives, to no longer shut Him out of the areas (sin - unforgiveness, hatred, immoral sin, etc) that we have not been willing to surrender. Most of all, it is time that we come together as one body of Christians and support one another so we may become stronger in God. When all of these things happen, revival is possible among the church and the world.

So, who wants revival? Who is willing to do everything that it will take for a revival to occur? Who is willing to stand up for the Christian faith, to share the love of God with others regardless of how they may react? Who is willing to be "bananas for Jesus"? Who?

Time

2008-08-24T09:47:00.000-07:00

It's been quite a while since I have posted a message and the reason is because I haven't had the time, or actually that has been my excuse. I have felt too busy with a new baby and trying to have a social life to sit down and post a blog, even though it only takes a few minutes. The other day I was thinking about this blog and realized that I actually did have the time to post an entry but I chose to do something else with my time. I related this to my walk with God.

Often, we feel too busy to spend the time with God and listen to what He wants to tell us that will help us get through each day. We think that we don't have the time because of everything else that we make a priority. The truth of the matter is that we have the ability to choose how to spend our time each day and no matter what, there is always a little time that can be spent exclusively with God. God wants us to seek and spend quality time with Him each and everyday. He is waiting for us to make the first move towards Him, and once we do, he can flood our hearts with His love which makes everything else in life easier to get through. We must make God our first priority, and only then will our lives be filled with His love and peace.

Preparation for the Future

2007-10-09T11:58:00.000-07:00

I was reading a book called, The Hiding Place, a true story about a woman named Corrie Ten Boom. Corrie and her family hid Jewish people in their house during the reign of Hitler and ended up in concentration camps, with Corrie’s father and sister dying in the camps. This book is about Corrie’s story, what happened to her and her family during her lifetime. In the preface of the book, the authors were speaking with Corrie about her history, and this was what Corrie said about life: “Every experience God gives us, every person He puts in our lives is the perfect preparation for the future that only He can see.” When I read this, I was immediately impacted by the truthfulness of the statement.

I realized that no matter what I go through, good or bad, it is preparation for the future. Even in the times that I am in less than desirable situations, God can and does use it to prepare me for the future. As it says In Isaiah 44:7, God knows everything that has already happened, and is going to happen, He can already see my future because He is the One that created it. I don’t have to be perfect because God is in control and He’s not worried about my current or future situations, so why should I be? He allows me to go through all types of different circumstances because He knows that it will be the perfect preparation for the future. As long as I am seeking God everyday, He will be in control of my life.

I am so thankful that no matter what I do or say, God loves me just the way I am. He is not worried about any of my circumstances that I am going through or will go through in the future because He’s known about all of them, before I was even born.

God Will Always Give Us a Second Chance

2007-09-12T10:26:00.000-07:00

The other day I was talking with my husband Steve about our lives and how much everything has changed over the past few years. I began to tell him how different our lives are from five years ago and before I could get the words out, I realized that we are in the same situation we were five years ago. For example, we are living in the same place (Connecticut), attending the same church (Bethel Christian Church), we are even involved in the same ministries that we were five years ago. God has brought us through a lot in the past five years including moving to Iowa for two years to learn some lessons, but now He has brought us back.

I realized that God is giving us a second chance. The first time around we made a lot of mistakes. Granted, a lot of the mistakes needed to be made so that we could learn from them, but nonetheless we did make a lot of them. When I realized that we are in the same situation we were five years ago, it hit me that God is allowing us to have a fresh start with the situation, to do it right this time. Obviously, we won’t get everything correct, and there will be mistakes, but He is allowing us a second chance to do it right.

Wow! Who else would give you a second chance when you’ve already messed it up once? I am so excited to know that God isn’t only the God of second chances, but also of third, fourth, fifth, etc. chances. He will never give up on me no matter what I do. I am so excited to see what God is going to do in our lives!

How is your connection?

2007-08-24T09:44:00.000-07:00

Today, while I was at work, the network connection on my computer stopped working. I was not able to access my folders or databases that I need to do my job. As I looked at the cord that connects me to the network, it appeared that everything was properly connected and I could not identify any problems.

Suddenly, I thought to ask God if He was trying to tell me something. God began to show me that often there are times when it appears that I have a perfect connection with God but something is wrong with the communication between His Network and me . I do everything right, I pray, read the Bible, and go to church, but I miss the part about actually seeking His face and what He is trying to tell me. The part that makes the connection work is the part of keeping Him first in everything I do.

Everyday He is showing me that He desires more of me than doing all the "right things." I also need to have the right heart. To have the right heart is a far deeper expression to God. It is no longer about my actions but about my inner man, the part of me that nobody can see.

There are times when one will hide his or her inner man because of the wrong thoughts and motives. God is challenging Christians to make sure that our inner man is righteous before Him, to not only have good actions but also to have a good and pure heart. I know that I don't want to be like the Pharisees who had outward appearances of holiness but their hearts were turned away from God; I do want to be like the disciples because, while they may have made mistakes, their hearts were turned to God.

What do you think?

To be in God's Presence

2007-08-23T08:49:00.000-07:00

Lately, God has been teaching me what it means to be in His presence. I was praying the other day, asking God for more of Him and he showed me that there are two different ways to be in His presence. As I was praying, God gave me a vision where at first, I was in the same place as God, and I could see Him several yards away from me. Then, I began to come close and I was in His midst, I was not only close to Him, but I was inside of Him; He was like a cloud that I could enter the way that a plane goes into clouds while it is flying high in the air. Then, I realized that there was a difference between when I saw Him and when I was in Him.

Last week my family went on a trip to Wisconsin from Connecticut. On the way home to Connecticut, I looked at the window and the plane had flown directly into a cloud. I was amazed at how the only thing that could be seen was the cloud, we were completely immersed in the cloud. This is what I am talking about, to be completely immersed in God the way that the plane was immersed in the cloud so that nothing else can be seen.

So often, I have been in a place where it was evident that God was there, and I was satisfied with the knowledge that He was there. I could hear what He said, see what He did, I could even see the emotion on His face; God would meet me right where I was and give me what I needed at the moment. There would be times that I would enter into His presence (be inside Him) but it was not often. Now, I realize that my entire life needs to be in His presence, that I must be so close to Him that I can hear His heartbeat.

I know now, that if I know His heart, not just His actions, or words, but His true heart, that I can live my life for Him as I know He desires me to do. When I pray or worship or read the Bible I must not only enter the temple, I must enter the Holy of Holies, the secret place where God dwells always.

It is not enough to say I will live my life for Christ, I must live completely in God. I must find out what is on His heart, so I can respond to it and live in His will. I must always be immersed in Him so that I know if He wants to pray, read the Bible, or just be still and know that He is there. No matter what He wants, I must be obedient to listen to His heartbeat and act on what He tells me.

2007-08-21T10:47:00.000-07:00

Hello,

Welcome to my new blog, http://moreshammah.blogspot.com. I chose this name because to have more Shammah, is the best thing possible. The word Shammah, comes from Jehovah-Shammah, which means "The Lord is There; The Lord is in This Place; The Lord is with Us". This is what I truly believe about God, He is always with us, regardless of where we may be. This truth, is my testimony because everyday He is always with me, He never leaves or forsakes me, and this is one of the few things that I know I can always count on in life.

Recently, God revealed to me that we are always in His midst. In Matthew 18:20 it states, "For where two or three come together in My name, there am I with them". This passage of scripture has always meant to me, that if I pray then God will be "invited" in by me through my prayers. This is true, however, God showed me that He is always there, whether I know it or not. If I'm praying, reading, washing dishes, etc. it doesn't matter, He is there and I can call on Him in a moment, and He is there. He is able to be there so quickly because He is already there, all I had to do was acknowledge His presence.

I pray that this blog be a source of showing God's love for each of us. I am hoping that you will post responses to the site so we can all learn together about God.

God bless,

Karen